I've been dating a really awesome guy for almost two years, but we never say "I love you."
I know it sounds like I'm an awkward middle-schooler or something, but I'm actually in my thirties. All the guys I've dated in the past have told me they loved me fairly quickly, but it normally takes me a good six months to a year to know that I feel the same way. Those guys have also been abusive, controlling assholes, but this relationship is going great. But for some reason, the idea of telling my guy that I love him sends me into a panic attack.
It's getting to the point that it's kind of ridiculous. I'm not sure what I'm so scared of. His actions show me he loves me, but I guess I'm scared that he just won't say it back. And then where does that leave me? I mean, if he doesn't know if he loves me after two years, then I'm not sure this is the relationship for me.
So how do I get over this fear? And what do I do if he doesn't say it back?