I just started a new job a little over a week ago. I have been tentatively diagnosed with bipolar disorder type II, and unfortunately began my job in a depressive phase. I work entirely with other young women in a retail environment, and everyone says I'm doing a good job in the store, but when it comes to interpersonal relationships with my coworkers, I kind of suck. When I'm tired and/or stressed (which is all the time, lately) I have this awful tendency to say stupid shit, and I know I give off a bad impression. I've always been awkward, never had many friends in school, and I grew up with three big brothers so I'm not very good at relating to other women.
Beyond that, my coworkers already don't seem to like me. They say passive-aggressive things around me, whisper to each other when I'm around, and are dead silent when I buy something at the register (whereas with each other they joke around quite a bit). I feel really uncomfortable around them, and simply don't know how to relate to them. Coupled with the fact I'm still kind of depressed/anxious, I'm scared of losing my job and scared that nobody will ever like me and I'll always have to walk into work with that feeling of dread. I can't drive, and this is the only job within walking distance of my house. I was excited before starting the job, but I'm already growing to hate every second of it.
What should I do?
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