I want to apologize for last week.
I had to go back and re-read last week's article in order to understand what you guys were saying. Eventually, I was able to shed my defenses and look at what I had written, while detaching myself from my intentions in writing it, and my subsequent reaction to your comments.
I read what I had written, and I realized that it was mean.
I didn't INTEND to be mean, but that doesn’t mean that it wasn’t hurtful. I got lazy and didn't construct an explanation that conveyed my thoughts in a compassionate way. I was inconsiderate and I hurt some of your feelings and I'm sorry. Me being “bored” had little to do with you as readers and more to do with my own inability to do a column of any sort because I am a millennial raised on TV and I need to switch things up a bit to stay awake. And yes I realize I am incredibly lucky and privileged to have a job that allows me to do things like stop writing a column because I'm not enjoying writing it anymore.
Most of my duties here at xoJane are administrative and behind-the-scenes -- I have very little time to actually sit down and write. So if I’m not really invested in what I’m writing, I’d rather spend the time helping other writers who are passionate about their stories get their ideas published.
This does not mean I am not invested in YOU readers. You are the skeletal structure of this site. So I hope we can walk away from this giving each other less side-eye than we did last week and least sit next to each other. It’s cool if you don’t want to talk much anymore, I understand. Hopefully, I’ll be able to earn your trust again and we can all go back to being buddies again.
The great news is that starting next week, Hannah J. will be the new loving caretaker of the What YOU Taught Us About Style This Week column. She is really stoked to write it for you guys, so leave our outfits in the comments and get her off to a good start.