anxiety
I have spent so much time hating my body for being a thing no one could desire. How could anyone desire me when I refuse to even run a glancing hand down my own body myself?
in

Sep 26, 2014 at 5:00pm | 29 comments

childhood crushes
Ian was the first shiny orb of real pain I ever felt, and in a strange way he rattles around inside me still.
anxiety
I can’t listen to music without a wellspring of tears exploding from my sockets. I can’t watch the movies or television that I love. I try to read and the letters dance around the page like they are on fire.
in

Sep 18, 2014 at 5:00pm | 99 comments

childhood crushes
Ninth grade. Kilts. Homeliness. Long hair. Center parts. T-Zone acne. I was in love with Mel Gibson, I was in love with Sting. I was a strange girl.
childhood crushes
Jimmy had brown eyes with long lashes like a baby cow. A very sexy baby cow.
in

Sep 11, 2014 at 6:00pm | 50 comments

crying
Ever blown a snot-bubble over a dropped kettle chip? Welcome.
in

Sep 5, 2014 at 5:00pm | 278 comments

anxiety
I used to insist that I was a very private person. I wasn’t being funny, I meant it. I could tell you that I hate wearing underwear and about my earliest sexual fantasy and still earnestly believe that you didn’t know me at all.
in

Sep 4, 2014 at 6:00pm | 26 comments

childhood crushes
I recap a lot of different reality shows where women fight and snarl at each other and wear bandage dresses, and the thing that unsettles me most about them is how the main characters all seemed to stop developing emotionally at twelve.
home decor
Some people chose themes like 'the ocean' as their inspiration. Other people choose 'testicles.'
anxiety
The problem with being anxious is that monotony is your only option.
in

Aug 22, 2014 at 5:00pm | 27 comments