It's gonna get sappy up in here.
If you would have asked me when I was 25 if I would ever willingly inject botulism into my face, I would have laughed. Even as a beauty editor, I just couldn't see myself personally EVER wanting to go there.
Now I laugh at my twenty-something self -- about that and so very many other things I thought I knew as absolute truths back then. HA to the fact that I thought I was going to marry and live happily ever after with the emotionally unavailable guy I was hopelessly in love with during most of my twenties. We would be so divorced by now. HA to the fact that I thought my body was going to stay like that forever. And HA to the fact that I never thought I would want to do crazy cosmetic things to my face.
And really Botox isn't THAT crazy. I wouldn't be mad at a filler at this point. But a girl's gotta start somewhere. And if I was going to put botulism in my face, I was going to go to the best -- Dr. Fredric Brandt. Obviously, this is an amazing perk of my job and one that I unabashedly took advantage of.
Dr. Brandt is not only the masterful man behind more youthful-looking celebrities and chic New York and Miami ladies than you can count, but he's also a delight of a person. And I knew that I was in good hands for my first round of Botox.
I told Dr. B I wanted to look natural, but just a smoother version of myself. And I don't see anything wrong with that. I don't think that wanting to look younger means I'm also not enjoying getting older -- or that I'm somehow not a confident 38 year old. I am. Hell you couldn't pay me to go back and deal with some of the dramas of my twenties -- but I still don't want my skin to look 40.
And so last Thursday morning I sat in the chair at Dr. Brandt's and let him inject Botox into my forehead and at the corners of my eyes. It didn't really hurt -- just a prick. I was a little worried I'd bruise since I tend to do so easily, but nope! And no crazy allergic reaction like Kim had that one time on "Keeping Up With the Kardashians" because sometimes I watch that show but I'm not proud of it.
I iced my face for 10 minutes or so after the treatment and then headed into the office where no one was the wiser. You could see a bit of lift in my brow immediately, or at least I could. But by a week after treatment you should see full results.
Over the next couple hours, Dr. Brandt told me to do these facial exercises to help the Botox work better. And because I'm nothing if not a stellar patient who follows rules, I did them.
Over the next few days I noticed that my skin just looked BETTER. It didn't feel any different but the lines around my eyes were not so visible and same goes for those forehead wrinkles, especially the two perpendicular lines that haunted me between my brows.
The best part is no one could really tell, they just thought I looked great. Usually Jane can spot Botox from miles away but even she didn't know until I told her this morning! Dr. Brandt, you are a GENIUS! (Also, stayed tuned to our xoJane Twitter -- we're planning a live chat with Dr. B so you can ask him all your skincare questions. Date will be announced soon!)
Consider me a full on Botox convert. I also think sleeping with my new humidifier is doing wonders for my skin, as is my new product obsession: Dr. Colbert's Illumino Face Oil. I'm also still off refined sugar and gluten from my NOvember moment which is making my skin pretty happy.
These past few months at xoJane have also made me really happy, and I think it shows on my face.
I don't know how this three months (the amount of time I was always supposed to be here) went so quickly. Thanks to all of you for reading about my anti-aging adventures, product obsessions, and line cutting at fashion events.
Writing here has also given me a new confidence in myself...and my words. It's HARD to put pictures of yourself on the internet and honestly I feel like I learned so much about myself in the process. And also just how very much I missed writing. My last couple of jobs have been very management oriented and while I was doing a lot of editing, I wasn't getting to write much myself. I was always in a GD meeting.
So that's what I'm going to be doing for a while...writing for various outlets and trying to finally get this novel idea out of my head and onto paper. I won't be disappearing from the site completely either! I was a reader first so I'll always be one of those, and a commenter. Plus, I'll be pitching Emily and Jane stories too!
Until next time...happy holidays from me and my Botoxed forehead!