If all he’s ever cared about is whether I’m happy or not, why should I not extend him the same consideration?
I never used to be a big fan of weighing myself. Now it motivates me.
Oh, were you feeling good about yourself for a minute there? The world can fix that for you.
All of the risks, combined with the fact that I could just end up fat again, have completely taken weight loss surgery off the table for me. And don’t think I haven’t strongly considered it before.
plus size
I see more and more people recoiling from the term "plus size" like it's a total slam. What's up with that?
Modeling is almost like an abusive relationship. You stay in it because you think something great will eventually happen.

Jan 14, 2014 at 9:00am | 434 comments

At 12, my daughter is no longer blissfully unaware of things like thigh gaps and juice cleanses.
food porn
To help ease my cravings for cake, pie, fried chicken, and muffins, I’ve become a bit of a virtual food porn whore.
I’m not trying to be hard on you, fashion magazines. It’s just that you seem to be indulging some weird phobia about putting a plus-sized woman on your cover in any circumstances other than a flapping tent or an extreme close-up.
Our size difference is so noticeable, in fact, that when a mutual friend introduced us, even she couldn’t get behind the idea that we’d somehow form a relationship.
Is there a name for seeing a bad photo of yourself that takes your self-esteem from 60 to 0 in a half second?

Sep 16, 2013 at 1:00pm | 532 comments

No matter what I do, or how mindful I am about my eating and exercise habits (without pushing myself into unhealthy habits), the numbers keep crawling upward.

Sep 2, 2013 at 3:00pm | 396 comments

weight gain
Cut forward to a little over a year, and more than a few nights spent in pursuit of nothing more than Netflix marathons, a rotating diet of takeout food, and bottles upon bottles of wine, and I have gained over 90 pounds.
beckie francis
I always felt lame for being lazy and unathletic. Now I'm just grateful I got to avoid college sports coaches like this apparent nutjob Beckie Francis.
Most of us typically walk around anywhere from 5 to 15 pounds over our fighting weight, so in the weeks leading up to a fight, almost everyone has to change their diet, up their cardio, hit the steam room, and weigh themselves with a regularity bordering on obsession.

Jun 28, 2013 at 1:00pm | 45 comments

I’m not allowed to utter the words “run” or “exercise" without eliciting an intervention. Can I preserve my heart, please?
Fat. It’s everywhere. A dangerous predator lurking around corners, ready to jump out when you least expect it.

May 8, 2013 at 10:00am | 345 comments

He wanted me to admit to him that yes, in fact, my weight did bother me. He wanted to hear my say it, to hear the word “fat” come out of my lips.
Why you gotta play me like that, universe?!?

Apr 12, 2013 at 1:00pm | 419 comments

After years of working to educate others about eating disorders and healthy body image, I realized there was something else I needed to do: acknowledge my privilege.
I’m trying to figure out why I’ve been alone this long, because I’m kind of sick of it. (And everyone at xoJane is sick of hearing about it.)
Diet, Exercise and Gigolos -- 
8 different companions, 20 dates in 13 months
 98 pounds/42.5 inches/12 dress sizes lost.