the frisky
The very fact this question occurs to me is a sign of just how skewed the thinking is on mental illness in this country: my mind is framing it, even if unintentionally, as a personal weakness
suicide
He left the bedroom calmer than I'd seen him all night, walked into the backyard and ended his life.
facebook
Today in stuff I feel irrationally guilt about: pretending online that things are cool when things are actually totally not cool.
depression
Spring always makes me inexplicably mopey, to the degree that I sometimes have trouble putting food in my mouth on the regular. If you have this problem, too, I have a few suggestions for meals you can survive on until May.
dating
I’m trying to figure out why I’ve been alone this long, because I’m kind of sick of it. (And everyone at xoJane is sick of hearing about it.)
depression
I actually flew back 3,000 miles to Los Angeles from New York on a school weekend to try to win him back. And it just got worse from there.
ihtm
I’m a human being that deals with mental illness in self-destructive ways, not a bunch of orifices for you to poke because you think my reckless treatment of my body somehow cancels out my autonomy over it.
depression
I deleted his number from my phone. Then I called him. I do this kind of thing a lot.
exercise
Turns out there's a scientific explanation for why so many of us don't enjoy breaking a sweat.
the frisky
I decided to get off of Paxil, the anti-anxiety drug I’ve been on–off and on–for the last 10 years. And let me tell you, withdrawal is a bitch.
ihtm
I shivered on the table as she, this total stranger who was about to examine my vagina, condemned and disparaged my most private battle. I was already laid bare, literally, making me feel enormously vulnerable and awkward.
dating
The Crazy Town stuff is difficult to explain to my boyfriend. He’s sympathetic, for sure, but as far as I can ascertain, his biggest life tragedy thus far was wearing a palate expander in the fourth grade.
depression
The company line: We nutty/depressed freaks often have highs and lows, after all. Clearly, we unhinged loonies could not be trusted to tell them when our meds work.
depression
In the wake of any suicide, but especially a very public and prominent one, there is a rush to attribute reasons, and there is a collective sense of panicked guilt as people struggle to understand what happened and why.
anxiety
This depression and anxiety thing isn't temporary. It's not going to disappear when I hit a certain age, or achieve certain career milestones, or get a really great deep-conditioning treatment.
diets
Changing your diet drastically -- restricting fat and sugar -- actually create symptoms of withdrawal, which affect your dopamine levels, making you edgy, emotional, and angry. You know, LIKE A DRUG ADDICT.
depression
They’re frustrated because the normal me is funny and talkative and entertaining -- and generally fucking awesome -- and right now I’m just pathetic and not living up to any of those expectations.
page six
It’s hard to call celebrities out on their faults when you are barely functioning yourself, but that’s exactly what I did.
motherhood
After I had Gabe, I was clearly in need of some help. I was a wreck, my baby was basically starving and the midwife on call wouldn’t come and see me at home because she wasn’t allowed to visit a house in the dark.
seasonal affective disorder
I want to crawl into a hole for the winter and emerge looking pretty just in time for spring.
antidepressants
Antidepressants are complicated. Getting off them is more so.
facials
Are you sick of my depression? I sure am! Know something that helps? Facials that make you look all pretty.