personal trainer
I became a personal trainer to help other people build healthier relationships with their bodies, but in the process, I was undoing everything I had done to help myself.
Why couldn’t he just say the word FAT? What was he scared of?
Discarding clothes has revealed some pretty brutal realities, including the fact that I have wasted a lot, and I mean A LOT, of money on clothes.
Lipo and bottom aside, attributes are more or less God-given, not woman-made.

Mar 21, 2014 at 5:00pm | 96 comments

Modeling is almost like an abusive relationship. You stay in it because you think something great will eventually happen.

Jan 14, 2014 at 9:00am | 434 comments

As a Young Possessor of the Chub, I remember people constantly telling me "Don't worry, you'll hit puberty and thin out, then you'll be SUCH a beauty."

Dec 11, 2013 at 10:00am | 320 comments

Our size difference is so noticeable, in fact, that when a mutual friend introduced us, even she couldn’t get behind the idea that we’d somehow form a relationship.
Luckily, you have me to weed through the bullshit and find all the precious fat-positive entertainment jewels available for your streaming pleasure, because they DO EXIST.

Sep 20, 2013 at 1:00pm | 244 comments

On the almost-eve of my 32nd birthday, I've been thinking a lot about the 20 year evolution that my mind and body have taken.

Sep 6, 2013 at 4:00pm | 42 comments

weight gain
Cut forward to a little over a year, and more than a few nights spent in pursuit of nothing more than Netflix marathons, a rotating diet of takeout food, and bottles upon bottles of wine, and I have gained over 90 pounds.
Most of us typically walk around anywhere from 5 to 15 pounds over our fighting weight, so in the weeks leading up to a fight, almost everyone has to change their diet, up their cardio, hit the steam room, and weigh themselves with a regularity bordering on obsession.

Jun 28, 2013 at 1:00pm | 45 comments

I stopped hating my body when I realized that number doesn’t mean dick.

Jun 12, 2013 at 9:00am | 413 comments

body acceptance
In other words, I’m not very keen on my body, and I certainly don’t accept it. If one more person tells me I have to, I’m going to lose my shit and throw something really heavy and dangerous.
As long as I can remember, "leg stuff" as been a topic of conversation and controversy with my mom and me.
Fat. It’s everywhere. A dangerous predator lurking around corners, ready to jump out when you least expect it.

May 8, 2013 at 10:00am | 345 comments

losing weight
When you deal with your weight loss issues, you suddenly trigger Other People’s Weight Loss Issues, which means that you suddenly have to deal with their shit as well as your own.
What is so sexy about the butt?

May 3, 2013 at 10:00am | 234 comments

paleo diet
I know I’m probably going to get killed in the comments for this, but I like being conventionally attractive. It’s an easy life.

May 2, 2013 at 1:00pm | 1100 comments

My life circles around one fundamental question: “Will my ass fit there?”

May 2, 2013 at 10:00am | 110 comments

A blogger in Oklahoma City recently lost her job for calling a cheerleader "chunky" in a post. Meanwhile, an ESPN reporter declares newly out NBA player Jason Collins to be an "open rebellion to God" as a gay man.

May 1, 2013 at 10:00am | 19 comments

Tina Fey recently said that she won't talk crap about her own body in front of her daughters because she doesn't want to set a bad example. I wonder if my mom did the same thing, but now that I've grown up, she no longer has to maintain the illusion.
Diet, Exercise and Gigolos -- 
8 different companions, 20 dates in 13 months
 98 pounds/42.5 inches/12 dress sizes lost.